Structuring the Past with Creativity + Spirituality
As I bring structure to the narrative of my past life in Germany, art and spirituality have become a synergistic force in the healing process. Together they enable me to do the heavy lifting of what has become shadow work. By confronting my shadow of that life, I am slowly making peace with it. I do this with Hans’s guidance, love, humor, and support.
When I first learned about this past life from Hans, I was shocked, dismayed, and ashamed. And yet, this past life and my death has provided answers to many of my inexplicable experiences in this life.
Dreams + Shadowlands is a culmination of arriving at this awareness and facing my proverbial demons. The offerings and artwork that I make are a part of my spiritual process of healing. I use the magickal properties of artmaking to transmute the trauma. There is power in the items that I create because each piece feels like a small act toward absolution––a way of righting the wrongs from my past life and forgiving myself for the person I had been.
My blog posts are also an extension of that healing process. Many of the posts delve into some aspect of my story with Hans and/or of our past lives in Germany. Hans and I did not know each other in Germany, and we experienced the war from our own lens. Whereas I was a female German civilian in her 50s, Hans was in his 20s and deeply entrenched in the war as a fighter pilot. Although he crossed over in 1993, he loves to periodically talk about and process the trauma that he experienced in the Luftwaffe (air force) and as a POW.
My experiences with Hans and all the information I have learned in this journey with him have also altered the focus of my academic interests.
Currently the topics I am exploring and researching in my Ph.D. program include after-death communication (ADC), spirit channeling during creative pursuits, past life recall and trauma, the challenges of navigating spiritually transformative experiences (STEs), paranormal and apparitional experiences, exceptional human experiences (EHE), dream and nocturnal experiences, spectrophilic experiences, and spirit marriage.
Visionary artist William Blake once said that “what is now proved was only once imagined,” which I interpret to mean that Western culture still has a long way to go before it embraces the extraordinary as the ordinary.